I am listening to George Gershwin’s Rhapsody in Blue
I had forgot to bring up my cellphone yesterday from downstairs, but also hadn’t turned on my alarm. But I still woke up today naturally around 8am. Went to work and had my daily struggle with the gate. I managed to pull it open enough to have my civic slip in. As always, I would replay any messages on my voicemail. There was one new message–it was the people from the grant I had applied for! I called them immediately before I had set up my laptop and everything-thinking back to how I said I come into the office at 9:30am. I didn’t want to give them the impression that I wasn’t on point. She asked me a few questions to clarify, but ohh I stuttered and felt dumb. I was pulling blanks left and right. umm uhhs and frequent pauses alluded to my lack of preparation and making it up as I go. “Fawk! I’m screwed!”, I said to myself. If I were able to eloquently answer her questions-I would be more relaxed. Why couldn’t I have written more in the proposal so she wouldn’t have to call?
I feel inept. So of course I have to blab about it to my bf. I thought about doing a follow-up letter, but he carried it further by saying I should write that I forgot to add some other vital information during the call. So there it was–light shown in my dark skies. You can almost make out the faint singing of angels. =) So I wrote it out. I hope she reads it and forgets my ramble earlier. Yes, magically disappear from her mind and replaced with this new message. That would be wonderful! But that’s not gonna happen. Please-fingers cross! Or maybe, eh whatever if I get it i get it–no sweat} I should have this attitude? Either way I’m gonna forget it and concentrate on the now.
I had forgotten what I was gonna say earlier. Something about today’s economy…oh well. Must that be that important if I forgot. Today and all week is has been raining. Good for the Earth, I suppose.
